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Happy 21st Birthday to me myself!
Thanks everyone that wishes me. SMS-es, Face to Face, Facebook, MMS, Calls and etc!

Especially thanks my love one who gave me all the suprises. Love you! Mwahs! 

Genting was all about? Love! Weather was nice, feeling all good and stuff.. whats more? Air Justin Concert? hoohaaa.. rocks my socks off! Frankly speaking I don’t even have a decent pic of him from the concert.. not even one.. I was like so friggin far away but I can still see him, just that my camera uhh sigh.. forget about it lol. But nevertheless the show was reallll gooddd! SYIOKNESS Overload!

Now you said.. Gone Case or not? Those are the pics I snap during the last encore time! It was a rocking punk time for Justin where he and his crew jump around the stage and keep us entertain meanwhile they are enjoying it! All of the audience stood up and follow wat he did.. LOL!!! He sure know how to entertain his fans without having a boring and dull concert afterall, although he sang a loadsss of ballad songs!

Anyways after years of not playing Daytona, it still Rawks but Max Payne sucks big time LOL! I mean the movie. It has just plain dull and sigh.. dissapointed…

Sort of.. hehe with a simple and eye easing theme.
Today was so random..when I was walking at Pyramid this afternoon with my bitch bestie I don’t feel like buying one of those.. but now I feel like buying all the undies from forever 21 T__T crap. Especially the stripe one.

Anyways Imma heading to Genting this saturday with my boi to watch Justin Lo’s concert. Ahakz! Till then..

No sir, well I don’t wanna be the blame, not anymore.
It’s your turn, to take a seat we’re settling the final score.
And why do we like to hurt, so much?

I can’t decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why?
All the possibilities…
Well I was wrong

That’s what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa!
That’s what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa…
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that’s what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa.

I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you’re not here.
‘Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still try… holding onto silly things, I never learn.
Oh why? All the possibilities. I’m sure you’ve heard.

That’s what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa!
That’s what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa..
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that’s what you get when you let your heart win. Whoa.

Pain, make your way to me. (to me)
And I’ll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a riot in me,
Let’s start… Start, hey!

Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh why do we like to hurt so much?

That’s what you get when you let your heart win!
Whoa.

That’s what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That’s what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

I can’t trust myself with anything but this,
And that’s what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

Lyrics are too cool for it! Love this song!

Dear God,

I disappointed God. He has created alot for me. God prepared for me. On the other way, I disappoints a lot of people and even myself. From my love ones to my friends and to my family. Its too much for them to take. They trusted me so much and have faith in me. What I did in the end? Its the same thing. Hurting them over and over again.. For all the time I thought things have nothing wrong and it runs smoothly as it goes. When things happened each and everyone will have a different opinions looking on the case that happened. No matter what is it, it is people’s view. You will need to endure it and take it. It is essential. Why? Most of the time oneself does things they does not think on how other feels. It hurts people outthere. Destroying hopes and faith they used to have in you. Are you wrong? or Are you right? There’s no definite answer. Each one of us think differently. Mindset you hear that?

Most of the time as a human we gave reasons to our-self when shit happens. Things has already been happened and now whats the point of giving out pointless reasons? Take it and experience it as a part of life. I always thought when things happened I will need to provide a reason to give that problem a lil justification just to make others and myself feels better. But that was my thinking, this is not what others wanted at all.

For the past week, I really wish to sit down talk to you all outthere… This is what I wanted not what you all wanted.. Respect is what we should learn in life. Learn how to accept people’s opinions and choice. Not just thinking what you wanted people to listen and does. I really treasure each one of you outthere and I didn’t meant to hurt you. Being regret is way too late, there’s nothing I can say anymore on what I’ve did in the past. It has been a week where I kept on holding the same hatred I had for the past one week. I look back in anger. 

Tonight I decide to let it go completely. I always ask and beg for forgiveness. Is only forgiveness what I wanted? Maybe I am really obsessed with the word. FORGIVENESS. But does it mean anything? Able to make changes and improve oneself and changes will be more effective then asking forgiveness from others. Think it through, when things happened how can you expect people to forgive you in such a manner. I am being really really hard headed towards this.. Now, its really time to let go and forgive myself before I ask forgiveness from other people.. Make oneself a better person, continue with my own life and stop blaming.
In life, I always expected something. But before I expect something, do I give it to other people when people need it? No I didn’t.. Instead the other way. I ask for more and gave in less. Bear this in mind people, Give and Take. Give more, expect less. I was wrong all the time at this.

For all these while, I was never the person I wanted to be. I’m lost. I lost faith. I turned into another person. Sometimes, even when I look back I felt shame and disgrace. Where is myself? The real me? I always thought the feeling of loving and care really drift abroad from me.. But actually it never even drifted away. It is always here. But I blinded myself by telling myself I am lack of love and attention. The things I does is definitely asking for more love, care and attention. I started to do things only me myself know what is the intention. Most of the time I will get what I wanted to get. This is not the way it is.
 

For all the sentences I have state above it really affects because I will live with what I type above upthere. I want to be a useful person that I can do something and I feel great and proud on it. I seek forgiveness from you God. But there’s nothing much more effective than being myself once again….

Take care everyone of you outthere. I do wish all the best for you all outthere. Life’s great. Live Life to the Fullest!