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Dear God,

I disappointed God. He has created alot for me. God prepared for me. On the other way, I disappoints a lot of people and even myself. From my love ones to my friends and to my family. Its too much for them to take. They trusted me so much and have faith in me. What I did in the end? Its the same thing. Hurting them over and over again.. For all the time I thought things have nothing wrong and it runs smoothly as it goes. When things happened each and everyone will have a different opinions looking on the case that happened. No matter what is it, it is people’s view. You will need to endure it and take it. It is essential. Why? Most of the time oneself does things they does not think on how other feels. It hurts people outthere. Destroying hopes and faith they used to have in you. Are you wrong? or Are you right? There’s no definite answer. Each one of us think differently. Mindset you hear that?

Most of the time as a human we gave reasons to our-self when shit happens. Things has already been happened and now whats the point of giving out pointless reasons? Take it and experience it as a part of life. I always thought when things happened I will need to provide a reason to give that problem a lil justification just to make others and myself feels better. But that was my thinking, this is not what others wanted at all.

For the past week, I really wish to sit down talk to you all outthere… This is what I wanted not what you all wanted.. Respect is what we should learn in life. Learn how to accept people’s opinions and choice. Not just thinking what you wanted people to listen and does. I really treasure each one of you outthere and I didn’t meant to hurt you. Being regret is way too late, there’s nothing I can say anymore on what I’ve did in the past. It has been a week where I kept on holding the same hatred I had for the past one week. I look back in anger. 

Tonight I decide to let it go completely. I always ask and beg for forgiveness. Is only forgiveness what I wanted? Maybe I am really obsessed with the word. FORGIVENESS. But does it mean anything? Able to make changes and improve oneself and changes will be more effective then asking forgiveness from others. Think it through, when things happened how can you expect people to forgive you in such a manner. I am being really really hard headed towards this.. Now, its really time to let go and forgive myself before I ask forgiveness from other people.. Make oneself a better person, continue with my own life and stop blaming.
In life, I always expected something. But before I expect something, do I give it to other people when people need it? No I didn’t.. Instead the other way. I ask for more and gave in less. Bear this in mind people, Give and Take. Give more, expect less. I was wrong all the time at this.

For all these while, I was never the person I wanted to be. I’m lost. I lost faith. I turned into another person. Sometimes, even when I look back I felt shame and disgrace. Where is myself? The real me? I always thought the feeling of loving and care really drift abroad from me.. But actually it never even drifted away. It is always here. But I blinded myself by telling myself I am lack of love and attention. The things I does is definitely asking for more love, care and attention. I started to do things only me myself know what is the intention. Most of the time I will get what I wanted to get. This is not the way it is.
 

For all the sentences I have state above it really affects because I will live with what I type above upthere. I want to be a useful person that I can do something and I feel great and proud on it. I seek forgiveness from you God. But there’s nothing much more effective than being myself once again….

Take care everyone of you outthere. I do wish all the best for you all outthere. Life’s great. Live Life to the Fullest!

Everyone is talking about it right now! Moonlight! Oh well it ended! I personally like the way it ended! Seems like a nice way to end where everyone will be happy about it! ^.^ **DRUMROLLS** After a few months watching alot of drama rama on moonlight on tv I realized Moonlight brings alot of moral lessons. At least to me. Especially nearly the ending part.. Oh yes..

I found something nice for Raymond, Linda, Bosco fans outthere! The triangle Love sorta.. and the love between Raymond and Linda. Both MV’s are with Raymond’s new song in it. Found it from youtube which are fan made! these video is really professional made!

林峰 - 愛不疚 / 愛不夠

林峰 - 影子的愛情故事

Oh yes! ENJOY!

Finally I found a CD version for this song that appears as a Sub Song in Moonlight Resonance… Appears to be an old song by DNR titled ICE CREAM.

Ice Cream/Talk to me by DNR

Talk to me
Speak with me
Don’t sink before you rise, baby
Don’t fade away
You hesitate
You seem to wait
For all the time we had
Feels a world away

Who’s to say, we’ll be okay
we will make it through the night
Don’t wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

cause we’re the same
And I know that we’ll never change
look I bought your favorite ice ream
I don’t want to see it melts away

If you walk out now
I don’t know if we could be the same, baby
just talk with me
cause I want you to stay here with me

The memories
The things we did
I locked inside my heart
where i know i won’t forget

And now, who’s to say, we’ll be ok
we will make it through the night
don’t wanna wake up in this state
I just want us both to smile

cause we’re the same
And I know that we’ll never change
look I bought your favorite ice ream
I don’t want to see it melts away

If you walk out now
I don’t know if we could be the same, baby
just talk with me
cause I want you to stay here with me

I want you to stay here with me………

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I look at they sky..thinking back a lots of things. How things could change in such a short time. Reminiscence on the memories back to the past. Thinking about the blue skies.. the white clouds which are so beautiful…

Those were the days..

I can’t help it. But to type it out..

Most of the time we will find alot of reason and alot of silly things to conceal what we have done wrong. But does that means that you are not wrong? I’m sure you know the answer.

For alot of times, we did wrongly and we just.. Ahh nevermind.. forget about it. It doesn’t matter you see. Its not important. But.. come to think about it is it really not important like you think? I realized a person needs to be responsible on their deeds. You do this and you get this. If you have self conscience you will really know what you have done. You will feel bad on it. Feel really helpless where you wanted to fix it but you realized people just can’t give you a chance anymore…they feel its really difficult to go through their hearts and feelings because they already feel this is not the way you should have been treated me. How can you do that and etc. He/She can come out with 1000 reasons because he/she is hurt. He/She feel damn bad. It is not wrong!

Meanwhile, you hurted them just like you cut them purposely and when you comes to say sorry. Its too late. Yes.. it is TOO LATE. You feel sorry for yourself but people doesn’t. There’s no more defending yourself saying that you are accidentally, not intentionally. You cut them means you cut them and you purposely do it! You will have to bear it and accept what that will come to you. What goes around comes around you see. Karma. You do it and be prepared to face whatever that will comes to you later.

You will come and ask me. Did I do something wrong? I can answer you YES. I can’t deny. This is a crap post. Like I will give you the password! Damn it! If you figured it out come and talk to me. Else shut up.